Whats on my MIND -The Countdown that disturbs or the flow of EMOTIONS!!!

The title itself suggests many things-many thoughts,ideas,emotions flowing like a river from top to bottom in me...Two most important things- One that my 1st bday when I would be so lonely and secondly I am currently reading a novel which has left me speechless!!! The project that I was working for is OVER!! and Tutu reminds me that the LEOBOND is soon going to grow little older next month...A fresh year for me with my bday....New Hopes;new aspirations;dreamzzzzzzz..dats is!!!...Nooooooooooo not exactly , infact the first one without my closed ones!!!! Was this destined or I made way for it does not matter but the fact remains the same that this special day 4r me is going to be lil lonely without Lavi & Tutu as they have always been with me.....But when I look at it practically, I find tat all those things the Leobond has hated to do since childhood, God has forced her to do that..Examples can be many-I never liked to eat Upma,Thanda khana is not mu cup of tea and the important ones like EATING ALONE..STAYING QUIET for a long time,BEING ALONE and i guess I am not the only one who does not like it coz we all are human beings who suffer from EMOTIONZZZZZZZZZZ SYNDROME which makes life miserable.....Anywas I think thats destiny and it has to happen so its better I be happy and accept whatever comes my way...Now coming on to the book I am reading----APARAJITA by BIBHUTIBHUSHAN BANDOPADHYAY....the writer of PATHER PANCHALI...I would say that he's the INDIAN SHAKESPEARE!!!! The beauty of this novel resides in the simplicity of this book and the time which it takes us to....The story is a sequel to Pather Panchali and APURBO if you people have seen or read the 1st one...The natural beauty that describes the surrounding, the flow in the story,the spirit to fight back any situation.the reaction compels us to move into the character and understand the character well...The ultimate message that it conveys  is fighting back in every situation and moving with the flow of life enjoying every moment of it!!! Thats what the LEOBOND is trying to learbn in her MUMBAI PART 2 journey....So with my new year begining this August, I seek the path of more happiness & blessing from all..:):)...One more thing with the begining of this month as FRIENDSHIP DAY(1st August), may this begining bring loads of joy and togetherness.. (Cheers to all my friends!!!).....

The SIZE of Human EGO!!!

Ego is the immediate dictate of human consciousness. When this leaps in to the soul quietly it usually destroys the capabilty to distinguish between and opinion and decision. In my small encounter with people arond me, I have experienced very close relationships come to fullstop just because of 'EGO". The Leobond fails to understand why nobody thinks even once that it takes ages to make bonds and seconds to bury them. In this small interval of life on earth, why waste time in arguing upon things which hurt someone. Is it so difficult to bring smile on someone's face??Are we becoming so cruel in nature or are we all approaching towards that extent of cruelity.Is no person on tis earth guileless??Are we all prisoners of our own so called created ego...Does hurting others give that immense pleasure ??I know that all humans can never be alike and we can never possess similar traits ,i.e there is a variation in our opinion in deciding what is good and what is bad...But still cant we all make little sincere efforts from all our ends and decide not to hurt anyone by our so called blown up EGO....Saying SORRY is a prestige issue nowadays...Donno since when we humans-the so called social animals have suddenly turned into ANIMALS!!!!....I know the Leobond might sound too philosophical in this post but fact will change that the root cause of all frustrations...Lets stop being hooligans and make this place a beautiful place to live...Live and Let live-lets make our souls EGOFREE and join hands to spread as many smileys as we can.....

"The Stranger's Phobia"

The faces in the crowd which we daily come across, some known, some resembling known faces and others totally peculiar. Even If I know someone, they behave as strangers. Have you ever come across a situation when you need to meet someone and you feel nervous and your stomach starts aching…hehehee..This feeling is natural when we were kids and many used to say before the exams they used to have such a feeling…For me this feeling comes when I go to a new place or have to meet new people. My face is too transparent to resemble my expressions and feelings, no matter how much I try hiding them; they are but obvious on my face. One such evening it was late at night, 10.45 p.m or so, standing at the bus stop , waiting for my 522-Marol Agar bus, I saw that there was no bus coming. It suddenly started to rain in a short while and suddenly the size of the rain drops started increasing and the drops turned into shower. The shower increased the fear of not getting a bus, the number of strangers started increasing on the stop and the smile on the face vanished. I prayed to God, please send a bus so that I could reach home and had decided whichever bus comes, I will go. Suddenly I saw a bus which read 500-Vikroli Agar, I did not even think once and rode the bus that wherever it takes me, it will atleast drop me till Vikroli..With no second thoughts in mind, I asked the bus conductor that which was the nearest station to Bhandup, and to my surprise he said-Bhandup Police Station. As I took the ticket, tears started to roll off my eyes and I felt –God Is Great!! Today while sitting at M4, waiting for someone, I have the same feeling. All strange faces moving right to left and I am waiting , and as usual my transparent face is telling all the stories…hehehe…The canteen was full of such faces , the floor on which I am sitting everything..One to all except 4r One. Sometimes I miss Tutu during such situations coz she will always say –Deep Breathing Rekha and all the “Strangers Phobia” vanishes to some extent. I usually imagine that does every one has this kind of felling or its me who experiences this when in such situations!! If people do, how are such situation tackled and his stranger’s phobia taken care of?? Is it really difficult to avoid such situations?

My Broz Wedding-Phase 2

“You don't marry someone you can live with, you marry the person who you cannot live without.” Thats what marriage is all about and in an Indian family marriage has various components - huge family gatherings/relatives all pouring in before 15days, loads of sweets, screaming /shouting/dancing etc etc....The scene in Leobond's house was no different. The most important thing that I felt was for the first time in life my Mum had no time for me..heehheee but that was very natural and also she was the busiest person who had no idea what she was eating and drinking. TILAK in north India is a small ritual wherein both the family along with loads of friends meet to hook and book the guy for marriage ;)....In short bakra halal hone se pehle ki taiyari...First time in his life, my bro felt a little nervous and I could see that in his eyes. He was realizing that soon he will no longer be SINGLE but will enter a different phase in life and will have a better half who will be there with her all through & this is what we believe...The party went off well and by the way I missed something very important...My dear Tutu & Aunty came to Allahabad after good long years & I was happy to see her around..As usual the gals were looking stunning...hehehe...and after the party we reaced home too late and too tired but still we had to sing and dance :(:(....Suddenly at 2oclock at night I felt as if my heart was sinking which resulted in food posioning!!! Too pathetic situation as next day was Ladies Sangeet and all the arrangements had to be done...All plans came to stand still and I felt too bad...After two drips I started feeling better in the evening and all set for Ladies Sangeet. On the eve of Sangeet, all arrangements were done and the time for fun and frolic. The floor was on fire with everyone dancing to the tunes of film/folk songs making me realize that -'THIS HAPPENS ONLY IN INDIA'...heheee....The mehendiwala was there till 5 a.m and we all were struggling with sleep so that he could draw nice designs on our hands....Finally it was morning and the day for WEDDING....Everyone is busy with work but two very imporant things which I would like to mention - the difference in scenarios at the groom/brides homes. At one hand where everyone was busy plus happy in the grooms house, the scenario in the bride's house is equally opposite and it has to be... It the day when a girl leaves the house where she learns to walk/talk/read...Every single thing in her room starts pinching her coz she has to spend the rest of her life with someone who will in future be her life....Mum says its a natural phenomenon and we cant avoid, the Leobond agrees to it but the very thought that how different the scenarios are makes me too emotional....Anywaz the WEDDING will be described in next post....To be contd.....