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The year 2010 has showed the Leobond many ups and downs in life but the losses are unbearable. I am talking about my elder Di -Usha Di. She was 12 years elder to me. When in my summer holidays, I used to go to Allahabad, we used to have loads of fun and she used to make me read and learn new things.I was very fond of her. I was 11 years old when on one summer vacation I came to know that she was getting married, and not fully aware of what was happening I was busy in the marriage masti and could never understand the reason behind the sadnes - the sadness which at one point of time all the girls in India undergo, i.e leaving the house of their parents and starting a new life afresh. After marriage I could hardly meet her on my summer holidays and it were only letters which were the medium of communication as there were no mobiles past 9 years. In the due course of time I became the Maasi of two kids and time has moved on. There were ocassions when we used to chat and her love for us still remained the same. This year on Raju bhaiya's wedding, we were so exited about everything. Di used to be there for all the preparations and had spent good time together without knowing that this was the last time I was seeing her as Fate had different plans. Before we said good bye to each other she scolded me and said, bas I wont hear anything now, year end and I should be here attending your marriage. I smiled at her and said 'Jo agya Didi'. Shez no more and the loss is unbearable. Its hard to digest but I have no choice and God has never left options. My own life is not going to b with me and can leave me anytime, how the hell can I trust anyone else and thats the real truth. We live, we struggle but at the end puppets in God's hand and helpless, whenever he wants, he takes away our loved ones from us and like puppets we accept everything and with time the pain reduces.We all know and agree to this fact but since we are Human beings we still EXPECT/LOVE/LIVE/STRUGGLE and the VISCIOUS CYCLE continues!!!!.....
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If everyone who was to read this post , was to comment by some mandate.. im sure you would have here a million thoughts all on the same line...
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Such is life.
May Usha Didi's soul rest in peace and may GOD grant her all the peace He can and strength to all of you to bear this loss.